WINLOVE

Writing this down to document where I am standing at the moment in life.

I am living like a hamster at the moment.

Wakeup. Get ready to go work. Get my daughter ready for kindergarten. Walk to kindergarten. Chase my express bus so I don´t arrive late at work. Work. Get my lunch between kl.13 or kl.14. Leave work. Dinner. Bedtime. Reapeat.

Every single day.

I missed the random unexpected days. I missed the imperfectly perfect tropical weather and nature of Asia. I missed the food. I missed the loud laughters, loud chatters of everyone who is so excited to see each other.

Everyday, I feel like I´m growing an OCD behaviour. Because of every single day of repetitions, every single activities on particular events, exactly the same thing happening. The obsession of having out of my control when its not in order or out of the normal routine is driving me insane. Depression and anger hits me a lot – always.

I call my Mom every single day. To listen to her stories. To what exciting things happening to her day. It makes me happy. Its a little escape out of the ordinary and a little life of imagination to change something in my day.

When I get the chance, when I save up some money or probably win the lottery so I can afford life, I will go back to the motherland every single year. Or go travel the world again like how I used to.